Two Teeth Nolan

The other tooth broke through today! I can't believe this cutie has two baby teeth! I love this kid to the moon and back. 

Master Nolan

My due date on 10/23 came and went, something I really didn't expect. Then there was the fact that I had calculated when I first got pregnant that my date was 10/19. Who knows though. I really wanted a baby born in the month of October. It didn't happen. On Halloween we dressed up the family in our Star Wars theme minus our Ewok and set out in the neighborhood. We didn't stay out too long. All the kids were kind of over it, surprisingly. Brian had to work that night so he was kind of hoping all the walking would get labor started. It probably did but not in enough time. Honestly I am not sure when I noticed the contractions but about the time Brian got home I was on the verge of calling him. This was roughly four am on November 1st. I tried calling my sister (her phone was OFF!) and had to call my mom a few times to wake her.  We got the kids up and took them over right away. With this being baby #4 and my contractions coming about every three minutes we didn't want to wait too long. The contractions didn't last very long but were very consistent. When we got to the hospital I stayed with Brian because I can remember sitting in the area outside of triage laboring with Teagan and it felt like FOREVER for Brian to come back to me. So we parked and I walked real slow. Once in triage they hooked me up and all and that bed was the devil! My back was hurting so bad! Turns out Nolan was posterior or sunny side up. It seemed that it took a long time to get into my delivery room. Once there I could not handle the back labor and got my epidural. Of course I was dehydrated so they had to give me lots of fluids before I could get my epidural. I knew I should've stopped for that Gatorade at Circle K. After the epidural I labored and used a peanut ball. Worst thing EVER when you can't move. It helped to bring Nolan down and at 11:50am I started pushing. He was born at 11:53am. Oh I have never felt the ring of fire until this birth. And I am sure it was nothing really since I had the epidural. Man did it hurt down south! Well the doctor allowed me to naturally tear. YIKES! I have always been cut before but apparently they don't do that anymore!!! Would have been nice to know, thanks doc! Well the pain was of course worth it as Nolan Cade was born. I am pretty smitten! He was 7 lbs 11 oz, and 21 inches long. Definitely all boy!  

20 weeks means ultra sound time

With making it to the half point mark it means getting a routine ultra sound. We were excited to find out the gender and see who is coming to join our family. My mom came over to watch the kids and we headed to the office. Candy was able to meet up with us and see her first ultra sound. Glad I could give her that opportunity. The tech asked if we wanted to know gender and since we did that was the first thing she checked. I was not at all surprised that baby is another boy. I had a feeling. I think everyone else was a little sad because they wanted another sister. The kids however are now excited and can't wait until little ... is here! 

Love this. He is yawning!!! 

So to let the kids know what the gender was we did a reveal. It was fun and I think they enjoyed it! 

Right now we have just shy of 15 weeks until our little guy is born! I am sure it will flash by once school starts up again! 

Thoughts

Today in Relief Society we had a lesson which really hit home for me. It was a little about how the world and it's view on marriage and family are shifting. This has actually been on my mind but not so up front and bam! I have been thinking back to being a kid and what did I look forward to on Fridays? Remember the old anagram TGIF? All those fun shows geared towards the family staying home and watching some fun entertainment! Well TGIF is not something my kids look forwards to, so why is that? Well most of my generation that watched these shows, Full House, Family Matters, and others do not have children yet. We as a society have felt that careers and life style should come before starting that family. Also the number of children that we consider to be enough has gone down. I grew up with one older brother and one younger sister. In "Mormon" terms this is not a large family. Now having one child seems like enough. And waiting until careers are in place before we think about marriage is the norm. I remember my dad stressing college then marriage. Well I didn't go that route, and I am glad I didn't. I was barely 21 when Brian and I wed and only 23 when I had Teagan. I am grateful that I started my family young and I wish that family would become the center again. That's what I always wanted to be was a mother. I didn't want to wait! We did celebrate two years of marriage before Teagan was born though and I am happy that we spent two years getting to know each other. Now as I am expecting #4 I am sure outsiders think she had two boys and one girl that is plenty. But to me, who always dreamed of being a mom it's not. I would have guilt and regret if I was just done, now I am not planning of starting some TV shows The Gibson's 4 and Counting, haha but to me the family is the most important thing! The reason why I am here in the first place. I chose to agree to the Plan of Salvation and come to Earth. I wanted to be a mother and rear my children towards God. Now I am still learning! Not perfect at all but I am trying and I am thankful to have my beliefs. I want others to look at me and know I CHOSE to be a mother! I CHOSE to have my children. So far they have all been planned!!! And I can honestly say that I don't think #4 is my done number. Now Brian will probably disagree here but the plan had not been to wait so long to have more children. But I could not and would not bring another baby into the place we lived prior. Life was at a standstill at that place with no progress and we were all so already cramped and stressed. So baby #4 has been waiting. I always say you can't wait until the perfect timing so I guess I didn't heed my own advice but life was not great. So I jumped now. Are we financially stable? Nope! But I know we are going to welcome #4 and all will be okay. For me life is not about the wealth at the end of life but what we do during this time on Earth. I wanted to be a mother and so that's what I am doing. 

Pregnancy Update

On Sunday I will be 14 weeks and entering my second trimester. I hope with this new chapter that my energy and feeling well RETURNS!!! Being pregnant this time around seems like a lot harder. All my kids I had in my twenties and I am just beyond tired and feeling cruddy everyday pretty much! Of course I do get up really early everyday and watch a baby, so that could be adding to my exhaustion!!!  I can't believe I worked full time away from home with Teagan, how did I do it??? I remember with Rayle being tired and having Teagan play downstairs while I hung out, but I still cooked almost every night. We lived in Coolidge there were not a lot of let's go out for a quick dinner options there. Then when I was pregnant with Ashlyn, Brian was furloughed and home but I do remember not being able to control my sleep. That's all I wanted to do was sleep. So I hope next week I will feel back to myself even if just a little!!! My laundry habits have been horrid...like I am surprised the kids' teachers haven't emailed and to say man your kids STINK. I should be doing one load a day to be on top of it, and it's like two loads a week. Saturdays seem to be like two loads to play catch up. Also making dinner has been a roller coaster. Making anything chicken then turns me off to even eating after I spent time preparing the meal! I went grocery shopping with Brian and all the smells oh my, it was awful. I have since been again and I tried not to go near the stinky places, i.e. seafood, deli, and the coffee areas. Those just make my GAG. I know there is an end to all of this, so let's hope it's back to me soon! So hears to hoping, fingers crossed! Also I feel very LARGE I know I am not that big but because of my excess weight I don't feel my body can handle the weight gain. Right now I am almost at the weight I was when I delivered my kids. With all three pregnancies my end weight was about the same 165-170. Back in October when I had my IUD taken out I was 175!!! I almost fell off the scale seeing that. I asked if the extra weight was from the IUD and they said oh no it must be my hormones. Well those checked out normal, so I am blaming that! It is a side-affect, and NEVER again am I going that route! When I went in for my first check up I was down 12.5lbs and I don't get sick throwing up, I get sick dry heaves. I still am eating almost normal so I feel yep that darn IUD is to blame. I still am about the same weight and I will ask my doctor about the extra weight gain and if my body can handle it, since I am overweight.




A little about baby
So if your visual and want to know, then baby is about the size of a lemon! Measuring 3 1/2 inches and about 1 1/2 oz. Aw so cute!!! And we are finding out the gender! I know me not waiting but with such a large age gap we will have, I want to be ready and know what's coming. 6 weeks and we can find out. I hope it goes fast!!!

BABY BABY OH BABY

We are going to have a baby in October!!! So excited! The kids can't wait. I am 11 weeks and anxious to know what this baby will be. I got rid of a lot of stuff and need to know especially clothes what we need to prepare for. I honestly am hoping for another little girl so Ashlyn can have a sister, but feeling like it's a boy. Hopefully we will be able to tell at the ultrasound! My due date is around Oct. 19-23 I had an early ultrasound and they said the baby was measuring smaller but hello all my kids are small! So we shall see! Can't wait!!! The count down has begun!